all i want is to be invisible

all i want is to be invisible skin description

I don't mean literally invisible, though that would be nice. No, for Christmas this year, what I really want is to be completely and utterly unnoticeable, because, quite frankly, I am absolutely terrified of other humans. Not all the time, only if I a) am talking to only one person, b) don't know them very well, c) have to do something/say something in front of a large group or d) I am somewhere where I feel uncomfortable. I don't know exactly what it is, but for some reason I get scared. I breathe strangely, my hands get sweaty and sometimes my heart goes all weird and fluttery. I don't know if it's just me being a weird human or if that's just how all shy, introverted people get, but I really don't like it. It's actually become slightly more of a problem now, because for reasons I'd like to keep private, my one safe space at school feels a lot less safe.So yeah, what I'm saying is that, rather than being brave and trying to face up to my abnormality/normality/whatever it even is, I would just rather take away all contact with people and take the cowards' way out. Yeah, this is probably me just making a big deal out of nothing for some attention (wouldn't be the first time) but if anyone knows what I can do to get rid of it, could you maybe comment or something. And if it is something kind of serious and not just me being an attention seeking little schist, could you possibly tell me what it is, so I can find out what I'm dealing with..Anyway, if you're here, you probably didn't come to read the attention seeking drabble of some teenager, you're here for the crappy skin. Yes, that was the only skin idea I could come up with for being invisible. If I've actually posted this and you are actually reading it, then either it was by accident or I've decided that I don't care if a load of people on the internet think I'm looking for extra attention. You're probably all really nice people and won't say something like that (but if you want to, feel free), but in a situation involving other human beings, my imagination usually goes to a scenario which will be upsetting for me. Seriously, you have no idea how hard it is to post something on facebook and actually leave it there, rather than deleting it later and telling myself it was stupid.To be honest, if anybody does tell me I'm just a little brat looking for attention from strangers, they're probably right. This was just the first thing that came to mind when I asked myself what I really want, and I've probably been going on for too long and nobody's going to be reading this bit and it will probably get disqualified from the contest for being irrelevant but I have to post this because at least then I can pretend that I've told somebody and get an answer, without anyone I know passing judgement on me.I won't ask for Diamonds, Favourites or Subs, because that would mean you like the skin and, let's be real, I bet this will get zero downloads.Thanks for reading, if you still are.