stressed

stressed skin description

band has me stressed af we have all region coming up and like i can play my songs but i cant memorize my scales cause its so boring and i just want to improve on the songs because our second one is really weird and has a bunch of sharps (which im not used to since we usually have flats which are only b and the only sharp im used to is f cause we sometimes get it) and im confused as hell cause we dont play them a lot and the music sheet is like clumped together kinda and the notes arent spaced so i cant see my fingerings and i cant see some notes because the "#" is covering, like this one part its g then g sharp but i cant see the regular g so i dont play it then i mess it all up and i have to restart and its just so stressing then i have to do my scales and everything but its sO boring and like uGH my band director was like "its in alphabetical order" so i said "WELL I CANT JUST LIKE KNOW THE NOTES IN ALPHABETICAL ORDER, LIKE I KNOW MY ALPHABETS BUT ITS HARD AND I HAVE TO THINK FOR A WHILE THEN THE SHARPS GET ME CONFUSED AND I MESS UP ON MY B AND PLAY A B NATURAL INSTEAD OF FLAT CAUSE WE USUALLY HAVE A B FLAT" and i just went on plus my friends being crusty as (insert curse word) and gets triggered at everything LIKE I JUST MADE A JOKE AND SHE STARTED RANTING THEN SHES LIKE "EVERYTHING YOU SAY GETS ME MAD" I WAS LIKE "UM EVERYTHING (INSERT CURSE WORD) GETS YOU TRIGGERED, THEN YOU GO ON TO RANT ABOUT NONSENSE CAUSE YOU CANT TAKE A (INSERT CURSE WORD) JOKE." I SWEAR IM SO THE POINT WHERE IM SKIPPING LUNCH CAUSE IM SO FED UP WITH HER IF WE FIGHT SO MUCH IM GONNA TELL HER THE (INTSERT CURSE WORD HERE) THE WAY I (INSERT CURSE WORD) FEEL ABOUT HER. and then this guy likes me (hes a trumpet too and sits kinda near me in band) and iFBR WE DONT TALK BUT I ALWAYS MESS AROUND AND HE ALWAYS LAUGHS AT WHAT I DO SO IM JUST LIKE FHNR OKAYAYAYAY then my friend kara just told me today he likes me and i was just like oh um ok and sheS LIKE "DONT BE AWKWARD" LIKE OK I DONT TALK TO HIM RE BUT OK THEN SHE SAID "dONT EVEN MAKE EYE CONTACT" THEN WE WENT WALKING AFTER SCHOOL AND HE WAS BEHIND US AND SHE STARTED MAKING JOKES ABOUT ME AND HIM AND I KEPT LAUGHING THEN HE GOT IN HIS CAR AND LEFT AND HE TEXTED KARA LIKE "lol i saw u guys" she was like "REALLY?" WE DIDNT NOTICE YOU" and she took a picture of me running bUT MY HAIR WAS FLOPPING AROUND AND IT LOOKED LIKE I HAD A WIG ON RIFJMFD ok thats my life thanks if you actually read this all (: also ; hOPE YOU LIKE THE SKIN IT WASNT MUCH BUT I FELT THE NEED TO MAKE A SKIN (((: